What can go in place of the me, the familiar thoughts and feelings that consume my waking hours, and cause me to not be fully present in my body, in my interactions with others, in the world? Sometimes it feels so hopeless. I hate feeling the way I do. However, I’m not sure how realistic my want to rid myself of these feelings are since maybe others have the same feelings but I don’t know this. The one thing is that I live a life that is restricted because of this. I avoid people. I just want to be alone at home, safe. I do not take risks to get to know people, to ask questions, to reach out. I am consumed with being safe and feeling OK.
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